So here I am again on Christmas holidays!! I have spend the entire semester either studying, trying to study, thinking about studying, or feeling bad about not studying and now I am free and have no idea what to do with myself. After two weeks of living in the library I thought that I would be looking forward to being done and starting but holidays but instead found myself feeling bittersweet. Being done finals means the end of my semesters and being done my semester means I only have one semester left until I graduate. Terrifying.
I have never really had to support myself before and the idea of having to work at a job that I hate because I need to pay my bills is terrifying. I have never had to consider finding a different job before I quit my current one in order to be able to pay rent or not being able to stay home when I’m sick and I’ve never had to worry about quitting a job because I wanted to move, etc. Now I have to take all of these things into consideration. I imagine that it wouldn’t be so bad if I was being conditioned for a job but my degree might as well be an application for McDonalds. It’s so defeating. What am I going to do. *sigh*
On another completely different note, I have noticed that I have a filthy habit of inserting the word “like” into my sentences when I speak in order to pad. This must be stopped. It makes me sound uneducated and air-head-y. Haha. So my goal over Christmas is to Read Orwell’s Animal Farm and Huxley, work on my speech and…decide what I’m going to do with the rest of my life.
Happy Holidays to Me!